About 2 months after my daughter’s death, I had a very vivid dream in which I was running in a marathon. In the race, I had kept a steady pace, and the finish line was finally in view. As I approached the finish line, I tripped and fell to the ground tumbling in pain

For the longest time, I couldn’t fully understand what it meant to be a child of God. I would sing the songs and read the scriptures, but I didn’t feel like I were truly his. I felt orphaned. So when things would go awry, I would retreat into my loneliness hoping the darkness of

Each baby knit delicately together in our wombs is a miracle. It’s amazing to really think about the process of creation. A tiny, almost microscopic embryo becomes a unique person with tons of personality as they grow up! 2 ½ - 3 Months after I had my daughter, Phebe, by c-section, we became pregnant

**Written while pregnant with Sophia** Early on in my current pregnancy, I experienced some alarming spotting. For about 4 weeks, it would happen on and off and each time it occurred, my heart would sink into my stomach. Once during this period of time, I had a horrible dream that I experienced a miscarriage and

I remember the first time I experienced morning sickness. I spent all day slow cooking dinner feeling totally fine, and with the first bite of my long-awaited meal, it hit! I immediately ran to the restroom, and you can imagine the rest… As I laid on that bathroom floor, I cried out to Jesus

Fear is one of those emotions that evoke a number of complementary emotions such as distrust, uncertainty, anxiety and more. I know we’ve all heard the acronym that fear really means False Evidence Appearing Real

**Written while pregnant with Sophia** I just finished listening to a rendition of “To Worship You I Live” by Israel Houghton and New Breed and with each measure as the song progressed, floods of tears would well up and fall from my eyes. It’s such a simple song centered around the same words within the