the circle of life

It’s crazy how I slept on someone’s couch for nearly a year, began complaining saying, “I need a bed!”, got a bed now and my own place, but choose to sleep on the couch more than in the bed…

I seriously don’t get myself sometimes.

I guess it’s kinda like the whole “going back to what’s comfortable” thing. While you’re in “it,” it’s the worst, most uncomfortable thing ever. But, once you’re freed from “it,” you keep going back to “it” like it’s a drug.

It makes me think of sin. We get delivered from sin all the time. But, if we don’t change our environment, habits or friends we end up right back at the front door of the sin we thought we were done with for good.

If I don’t make it a habit to get in my bed when I’m finally tired, muscle-memory will take hold of me and I’ll end up knocked out for 8 hours on the sofa. Sleeping on a sofa (for me at least) is not restful sleep and it hurts my back in the worst of ways…

I have to create new habits to replace the ones that lead to backaches… or in the case of sin, death. It’s easy to do what I’ve always done. I have to persevere in order to do something different.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.  

(Hebrews 12: 1-3 NIV)