Face to Face
“Maybe you shouldn’t drink coffee during this pregnancy.” I had just told her that we were expecting our rainbow baby, and that was her reply. No “congratulations,” no “I’m so happy for you,” no “I’m praying for you!” Her response to me felt like blame for the death of my daughter at 8 ½ months pregnant only
Grace Over Guilt
Consistency. That's my word for this year. I want to be consistent so that I can see progress towards reaching my goals. Hopefully this also means I'll actually achieve said goals
A Shift in Perspective
Lately, I've been thinking about this word perspective. We can get so overwhelmed by the demands of today that we lose perspective of the years that quickly pass us by. I guess that's why they say, "you can't see the forest for the trees." With small children, "today" can be rough. As I write this,
He’s in the Waiting
It’s amazing how everything can change in a simple moment. Tuesday, June 12, 2018 could be summed up as the best day ever! We stayed on “schedule” all day with our activities and chores and even had extra playtime outside with David’s new golf set that he received only 3 days prior on his
beauty for ashes.
In order to fight for healing following the death of my daughter, I had to take the word of God and hide it deep within my heart. In the early days of my journey through grief, I felt the Holy Spirit prompt me to pray for one of the Mercy Teams at Victory World Church
those that wait upon the Lord
After we lost Phebe, I had a vivid dream in which I was running in a marathon. As I was running, I passed by people to my left and right, and my eyes brightened as the finish line came into view. Excitement began beating within my chest, then it happened - I fell. I
you can have it?
Are you saying to the Lord, “save it for me,” or “You can have it”? I have just experienced the greatest pain of my life in losing my child. I asked God why He didn’t allow me to miscarry earlier in my pregnancy before everyone knew I was pregnant. I told Him if He had
the joy of the Lord.
Last year, I was worshipping at a Jesus Culture concert and a woman seated behind me leaned over and said the following in my ear: “The Lord will restore your joy.” She had no idea that I was struggling with contentment and joy at that time, and all I could do was thank her for being
it’s ok not to be ok.
Grief is a like roller coaster. One moment you’re up, the next you’re down and another you’re coasting waiting on the next wave of emotion to come. I’m so thankful for our family, friends, and church community during this time. They’ve been here day in and day out to pray for us, bring us food,
untitled.
How do you say goodbye when you’ve never even said hello? She has my husband’s eyes and lips, my nose and chin with a head full of beautiful black hair. At 34 weeks she was already 18 inches long and was beginning to put on weight in preparation for her estimated arrival in 6 weeks.